02/10/2026
Two of the biggest things that have helped me heal my heart, Chinese Medicine and motherhood ♥️
I’ve struggled with anxiety since I was five. I’ll never forget running to the bathroom to throw up before my first piano contest because my nerves were so bad.
As I got older, tests and solo performances brought me to the same state. Interestingly, as a competitive dancer in a group, I got nervous but never to that point. There was something about community and not doing it alone that helped me stay calm.
The pinnacle of my anxiety was 2016–2017. I hit several breaking points and didn’t know how to climb out. I threw up from anxiety often and was so scared I didn’t feel like I could tell anyone about my soul crushing doubt, not even my therapist.
In 2017, I stumbled into Reiki and began to make a profound shift. My anxiety decreased and I finally slept after months of insomnia. In 2018, I started acupuncture and slowly gained clarity.
I made the shift I needed to be okay, but in doing so left myself and people close to me hurt and heartbroken. I still carry some guilt for this, and I am truly sorry.
When I found my husband, I felt an instant connection but was still afraid of big life decisions. When I got pregnant, although I deeply desired a baby, I was terrified. The extreme nausea and vomiting brought me back to fearful moments from my past. I didn’t know if I could get through it.
And once again, community carried me through. I leaned on my family, husband and friends. I didn’t have to do it alone. I also had Reiki and Chinese Medicine. I held on and am so happy I did.
Flash forward to this morning, bringing my baby to work and dancing around the lobby. I can’t imagine life without him now. I don’t understand the doubt I had.
I am 100% convinced that motherhood has healed my heart.
Do I still experience anxiety? Yes. But it’s different now. Life is clearer, and I know where I’m heading.
As my dad told me, I can now help others because of what I went through.
If any of this feels familiar, I’m here to be part of that community for you through anxiety, conception, pregnancy or postpartum. You don’t have to do it alone. I get it, and I will help you.