25/01/2025
To our Amir and Amara, happy birthday in heaven mga naknak.
Ernest Hemingway once wrote: "The hardest lesson I’ve had to learn as an adult is the relentless need to keep going, no matter how shattered I feel inside."
The day I delivered and heard your tiny sweet cries were one of the happiest moment of my life. But the doctor was right, our journey was a roller coaster. And just days later I have to face the truth that the only time I will be able to hold and hug you both tight was when you were already lifeless. It was devastating and I was shattered. I did not know how to move with it.
Indeed, life has to go on, and we have to move forward, no matter how shattered we feel inside. Life doesn’t pause when we feel burdened, when our hearts are heavy, or our minds are lost. It keeps moving—unrelenting, unforgiving,—demanding that we move with it.
True, there’s no time to stop, no pause for healing, no time of stillness where we can slowly piece ourselves back together. The world doesn’t wait, even when we want it to.
But God has its ways of holding us, of holding the pieces back together for us. We will never know what life unfolds, We only have to trust him and yes, let go.
